jedi_of_urth

So this year's NaNo was basically a bust...again.

It started strong, then had a couple meh days then basically nothing for a couple weeks. Then I got hit with a different idea and I got a few thousand words into it. Then I figured out how I might get that idea to actually go where I wanted it to but it will require some reworking of what I've already done (and a lot of words in the middle to get there).

And I still have the question of how one actually finds a beta reader in these times. Actually at this point it's more like a cheerleader (but hopefully eventually a beta reader) as I'm so out of the fic writing game that I have little to no confidence in my writing.

To that end I have ended up rereading some of my old fics, and it has been a reminder that I don't completely suck as a writer. And a reminder that I should probably actually post stuff to ao3 at some point in case lj/dw vanish. Also maybe pick up a few new readers if I'm lucky. But in order to justify not back dating things I feel like I should at least be able to call them remastered and correct some typos that slipped through the crack.

I guess that's a project I could do...but I have other projects both fannish and real life, so we'll see.

And along those lines, if anyone is still out there, reading this, and wants to keep me thinking about old fics, feel free to ask me things about them. I may not be up for a full commentary, but I have memories.

I was already giving myself emotional whiplash since I was jumping back and forth between parts of my NaNo story where one part was super sugary cuteness and the other was trauma and depression. Then I went and watched this week's Legends and I'm just...arg. It's a lot of feelings.

Also, as a writing update, after a slow start I finally got my wordcount up to par, let's see how long I can keep it there.

So this must be a new record for years I've tried to do NaNo, I couldn't even get started. I was feeling super braindead all day and couldn't manage words. If that doesn't change direction soon I'll end up having to call it without even trying.

You know, for almost two weeks of NaNo I was doing really good, but the last few days it’s been spotty. By being feast or famine I’m still not too far behind, but it’s getting harder and harder to make myself keep writing.

Maybe it’s very telling of my writing attitude, things start actually happening (at least more than they had been) and I lose interest. I guess I need to get the story back to just people hanging out and occasionally referencing the idea that things might happen instead of trying to write those things actually happening.

( (Small TV update) )

You know, for not having a clue what I'd be writing until less than 48 hours before NaNo started, and still not having a great idea 4 hours before it started, and still mostly making it up as I go along...it's coming along nicely. I'm at just a hair under 8,800 words, and still have time to write tonight.

So I'm basically writing X-men by way of Downton Abbey, except my main character doesn't know about super powers yet, so it's kind of just British people being polite about things so far. Of course everyone else knows about super powers, and they're just too polite to mention it yet.

Now to think about what I'll write later on tonight, maybe the muses will decide it's finally time for something to happen.

1) Finally my NaNo muses have taken off the last couple days and now I get to write people sitting around talking for a while, I love writing people sitting around talking.

1.5) Unless I *really* kick it into high gear there's no way I'm going to finish as I just got over 11k on day 20, but I no longer feel like I'm putting in a completely pathetic try.

2) Is there new TVD this week with it being Thanksgiving and all?

3) Happy Thanksgiving, even if it's just a random Thursday for you hope it's a good one.

4) Maybe once NaNo's over my muses will stick around and I'll get back to my TVD fic series. I'm starting to want to get those specific muses back, I miss my little story that keeps getting bigger and bigger. I have tried to write a few post episode reaction fic but they rarely get finished before those fleeting muses are gone, maybe at the next hiatus I'll try and finish off a couple that will be completely jossed by then...if they aren't already.

Okay, NaNo is a bust this year. My heart was never in it this year, so much so that I don't even feel bad about calling it a bust early on. But seeing as I've written anything maybe two days so far and only once for NaNo...yeah it's not happening.

I do have some writing I need to do for journeystory, and heads up that I'm going to be looking for a beta for that soon. I think what writing muses I have need to be focused there.

But mainly, stating tomorrow I'm declaring it JeViMaMo (Jedi Vid Making Month). I miss viding as much as I used to, so I'm going to call up the vidding muses and we're going to spend our time on that. I'm going to try and do 50-60 minutes of vids in 30/31 days (I haven't decided on the exact rules). Those'll be first drafts mostly so I still have to polish them before posting anything but expect vid posts in the next couple months.

...Now if only I could make the writing-about-vids muses do the write-ups for my flasback commentaries.

So NaNoWriMo starts up in a few days and I'm just not that excited this year. A couple weeks ago I was having fun thinking about what sort of story I would work on, but even that's pretty much faded. My muses have been really unfocused recently and this isn't pulling them together like I wish it would. I hope I can turn that around but right now I feel this might not be my year (and I was so hopeful I might finally manage it).

On a completely unrelated note, baseball is over for the season now. It sure went out with a bang though, and YAY CARDS (they may not be y team but I was rooting for them all series long, although I liked Texas, just not as much). Right now I'm glad it's over, but I think withdrawal will set in in a few weeks. Since I dislike or hate every other major sport I have nothing to fill the gap.

So "competitive" writing it will be...

I was doing so well at NaNo for so long, but then I decided to go and visit people for a few days, then tomorrow I leave again for Thanksgiving with extended family. Before I left I was ahead by quite a bit ahead, now I'm behind and going to have to work to find the time to write the next several days. Fingers crossed that I still might pull it off, but not sure.

Also, silly main characters; when I want them to discuss politics and theology they want to make out, when I do want them to make out they want to discuss theology. These two just enjoy being difficult I think.

Okay so I realize I never really did a reaction post to the DW s5 finale, in fact I guess I didn't do anything for it. But the reason for all thing is...
( DW s5 finale talk...briefly )

I also finally had the chance to watch Iron Man 2 last night and here's my main thoughts...
( Spoilers even though I know most people interested have probably already seen it )

And NaNo update.
( Cut for the uninterested )